but i dont know the day got more stupid
people changed and i changed i dont have the tolerance for immature little shits anymore i excluded myself from their group a long time ago this summer and to this point i still excluded myself and it was good to watch everyone act like idiots and screw each other and to be dragged in over a crooked penis comment oh well its stupid and i just need to be the better person its shit talking seriously everyone does it and im not going to lie but when i do it ill have the balls and own up to it.
Well shannon and breanna had ther last words but with aj its just fuck it how many times have we talked and he still talks behind my back?
To clear up a few things
Dear blog,
if i ever get angry like that again well idk
im suprised ive grown up alot more i know i tried to start shit at lunch with a comment i made but oh well its nice being talked and about and getting dirty looks when you're right there. Whatever
im sticking to the quote
If you're being talked about then you're doing something right
Thiis is not shit talking be warned no one is asking you to read this but if you happen to well get over it :) because i dont get a shit im going to back where it all started
Its so funny well to start off
lets see
Lets go all the way back when i first met aj haha i thought he was cute and all and tried to go for someone who was "straight" and in the end this quote became true to me
What you want most becomes the worst for youNow i was super immature but thank you ella for putting up with me During BOTT i was always like bitching like "invite aj dont invite aj" i kept pmsing i felt bad now that i look at it so so sorry ella anyways moving on, why did i break up with him the first place
was it to get to luhan?
was it cause i got bored
was it cause im a man whore
i would say the third option but no :) people say i cheated on him but thats not the case in my opinion when your not official your practically still single so im going to clear that bit up first
But its something he couldnt give me and i was rowing to fast and i felt he couldnt keep up with my boat so i felt like ending things
oh heres a big thing
i dont give a shit if you think im a whore or a slut
im fucking proud of it
cause seriously that means, you're jealous cause i get ass and you have nothing better to say
and really my reason why i get over people so easily is cause im use to it not being hopeful and all im not a naive lover anymore im not going to cry over spilt milk, im going to suck if up and move on cause there's no point and if thats portrayed whorish well i have no clue what to say to anyone anymore what am i suppose to do cry over a girl or guy i went out with for only a month. I lost those feelings for him but obviously he had bitter feelings he said he didnt and ok ill believe him but still starting shit.
Saddest part was
he begged for a second chanced and tried to sway me with the words "i love you" it disgusted me.
In the summer more shit happened i got into more arguments in the end people turned on me even a close friend angelo, they all called me inconsiderate
I learned from it i learned to be considerate i grew up and i grew out of the stage of
OF FUCK THIS I WAS MADE THIS WAY I AM WHO I AM AND I CHANGE FOR NO BODY but to grow i know i had to step out my comfort zone. Now its really funny how aj liked jeremy but jeremy rejected him so aj went to the next thing Jerome and its really stupid i made a comment "everyone is stupid for crying over jerome who is leaving"
another thing to clear up i said that because no one knew jerome or talked to him as much as breanna and i did so it was stupid to see people cry over him when they only known her for two weeks i know its sad and all but come on seriously =_=. Aj and jerome went out OH OH OH PAUSE IT FUCKING PAUSE aj went out with kevin liang i gave them my best wishes and it was funny in the end kevin comes to me and say wow jonathan you were right "all he just wants is sex and not a serious relationship" so i was like wow 1 point for me
OK MOVING on back to aj and jerome they eventually broke up but it was so obvious jerome was a rebound because aj got rejected and two days after he was lke i liked jerome jerome jerome i want to go out with jerome. It was so funny so one day at Great America i happened to go with my cousins the same day as angelo and all of them and jerome aj and angelo they all were bitchy to me that day cause i stopped by to say hi to everyone they took off in a hurry i was like w/e im going to fucking enjoy my day with my cousins and in the end you know whats funny? Breanna and Jeremy got ditched by them
and its sad to see that people call me INCONSIDERATE i expected better from angelo cause we go back but you know what people of the past should stay there and if they dont make it to your present oh well there wont be a future either. Angelo soon realized what happened he apolgizied to everyone, and it came to the conclusion that angelo is a good person at heart and he wants to make everyone happy but he's a different person when he's around his twin.Poor jerome was a pawn in all of this i never did anything to him in my opinion he was also naive but anyways back on topic.
Aj and jerome broke up and funny thing iis AJ goes back to Jeremy. Now heres the thing
i get over people quick and if aj does the same to well thats good but aj was already potrayed as naive on the topic love still and he was already shown as "in it for the sex" so breanna i and other people warned jeremy becareful we're here for you. They went out and things mellowed down.
During homecoming i notied raymon and aj getting closer i was like oh weird oh weird
at lunch i took breanna and karen aside i was like are you getting weird vibes? i explained to them and pointed things out i sent karen to talk to raymon and breanna to jeremy.
You know whats so hilarious jeremy and aj broke up on the same day. I kinda laughed, the day previously i went to raymon before yoga i was like so i heard aj likes you he was responded with a "what how did you know" i was just kidding around so i was like wtf how did i know? Anyways i knew raymon and aj would have something it was none of my business but i sent karen to warn raymon cause even thou we're not close i feel like as a friend im obligated to like have his back
Now you know what
Raymon raymon raymon is something he hates me and he thinks jeremy is annoying why? because of aj we never did anything to raymon and its so funny he'll talk shit behind your back but never confront you and for a while karen said raymon was pissed at her to he'll be like "dont make things up" karen was like what did you say? he will be like" oh notihng nothing nothing" its so funny. People try to have your back and in the end you repay them by hating them, its ok it just takes one event to open your eyes and show you how naive you are.
i understand people can change and maybe aj did genuwinely like raymon but you just have to ignore the shit and prove yourself pretty much. Whatever it ends up as breanna and i talking shit. Now i did admit to pointings things out tihs whole situation reminded me of kalin and brittny when kalin tried to have brittny's back so i knew his point of view and everything but breanna blamed everything on me like the shit talking and etc. it was annoying
Anyways stuff mellowed down
oh here's something stupid
so Aj was led to believe that i got angry cause aj "got to raymon first" cause i called dibs on raymon when he came out the closet. Honeslty thats not the case he can go fuck himself up the ass. He's forming a situation of sides right now and honestly if you want people to start choosing sides than so be it i will never back down even if im left alone.
Stuff seemed to mellow down and kalin made a comment about his crooked penis one day
and you know what we talked things out and he made a comment like i said in the last blog about setting me straight ok that like ticked me off to the point where i couldnt like talk. So im here now and its funny they talk all the shit they want and
in the end
I feel good now im brushing it off and im feeling good cause i know they're thinking about me at least, you just have to love the haters right?
They can go fuck themselves
happier note
Went to SC today
Saw old friends
Nancy<3 miss your ass Stephanie nazario
a whole bunch of people tons and tons and i met new people
I LOVE OLIVIA im her sexy slut hahaa
i ended up hanging out with iinteract people for a while made fun of jin with Heidi and talked to priscilla watch interact do their lip sing.
Its nice to see people there even chanel :)<3
Anyways im done blogging
Got offended oh well do something about it haha!
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