Saturday, January 17, 2009
Where?
oh where to start
Finals are Over i got B's and C's on my finals hooray
i get to stay in colorguard in my B in chemistry goes up,
For semester two less boys More school i need to focus focus focus
and Rob is going to be on my ass.
Mmm Life is easy going now, Learning how to time manage and being aware of who im allowing into my life pretty Fun.
Went to MHS the other day
i miss David and Aaron so much!, Lindy she's some fucking funny:) they were speaking ghetto while we were walking to Burritto Express, i dont want to get into full detail about how i felt that whole day, but david felt the same way i just miss aaron in that way but ya know its whatever
Kevin can think i use him he;s stupid i just ask for a ride to your damn school you can say no im not fucking forcing you
i was told Daven thought i was annoying
BECAUSE
BECAUSE
i didnt like do anything? i guess you could say
it was really stupid
Jewel and i hella talked about life and sht and then we started talked dirty to each other about sucking each others dicks and etc
haha so funny
i met her girlfriend and then Jewel introduced me to this really cute guy named Alex ahhaha :). mmm SCHOOL SCHOOL SCHOOL
hahah
:) well what else
Fantastics is coming up and i have to start choreographing yippe for me?
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Mr Nguyen
of fucking cao
doesnt matter
its so funny and pathetic
you're going to make a lie
oh my best friend DIED and then you're going to tell and other friend she moved
i called them as i see them and if you;re caught lying really wtf grow some balls and own up to it
i confronted on on aim
and all you could say was
GO DIE
YOUR FACE
i can see why you go through most the shit you have in your life
immature, im better than this.
heyitzjonathong (9:40:38 PM): wow so you're seriously just going to hate me like that, really mature for the lie you made
if you're going to lie im going to call them as i see them, and my blog is my release
heyitzjonathong (9:40:44 PM): whatever i dont need to deal with little kids
WillyCeesaydwha (9:40:58 PM): go die shit bag
heyitzjonathong (9:41:04 PM): youre going to tell me your best friend died
WillyCeesaydwha (9:41:05 PM): dont talk to me
heyitzjonathong (9:41:07 PM): and you going to tell david
heyitzjonathong (9:41:08 PM): she moved
WillyCeesaydwha (9:41:08 PM): SHE DID
WillyCeesaydwha (9:41:13 PM): and dont believe me
heyitzjonathong (9:41:17 PM): ok
WillyCeesaydwha (9:41:18 PM): dnt bother with me
WillyCeesaydwha (9:41:20 PM): i hate you
heyitzjonathong (9:41:23 PM): so she MOVED AND DIED
WillyCeesaydwha (9:41:23 PM): dont ever talk to me
heyitzjonathong (9:41:25 PM): your mature
heyitzjonathong (9:41:28 PM): i dont plan to
WillyCeesaydwha (9:41:30 PM): your face
heyitzjonathong (9:41:33 PM): cause you're really fake
WillyCeesaydwha (9:41:35 PM): STOP
heyitzjonathong (9:41:37 PM): bye
heyitzjonathong (9:41:47 PM): if you're going to lie GROW SOME BALLS
doesnt matter
its so funny and pathetic
you're going to make a lie
oh my best friend DIED and then you're going to tell and other friend she moved
i called them as i see them and if you;re caught lying really wtf grow some balls and own up to it
i confronted on on aim
and all you could say was
GO DIE
YOUR FACE
i can see why you go through most the shit you have in your life
immature, im better than this.
heyitzjonathong (9:40:38 PM): wow so you're seriously just going to hate me like that, really mature for the lie you made
if you're going to lie im going to call them as i see them, and my blog is my release
heyitzjonathong (9:40:44 PM): whatever i dont need to deal with little kids
WillyCeesaydwha (9:40:58 PM): go die shit bag
heyitzjonathong (9:41:04 PM): youre going to tell me your best friend died
WillyCeesaydwha (9:41:05 PM): dont talk to me
heyitzjonathong (9:41:07 PM): and you going to tell david
heyitzjonathong (9:41:08 PM): she moved
WillyCeesaydwha (9:41:08 PM): SHE DID
WillyCeesaydwha (9:41:13 PM): and dont believe me
heyitzjonathong (9:41:17 PM): ok
WillyCeesaydwha (9:41:18 PM): dnt bother with me
WillyCeesaydwha (9:41:20 PM): i hate you
heyitzjonathong (9:41:23 PM): so she MOVED AND DIED
WillyCeesaydwha (9:41:23 PM): dont ever talk to me
heyitzjonathong (9:41:25 PM): your mature
heyitzjonathong (9:41:28 PM): i dont plan to
WillyCeesaydwha (9:41:30 PM): your face
heyitzjonathong (9:41:33 PM): cause you're really fake
WillyCeesaydwha (9:41:35 PM): STOP
heyitzjonathong (9:41:37 PM): bye
heyitzjonathong (9:41:47 PM): if you're going to lie GROW SOME BALLS
Betrayal
ok GOOD WAY TO START 09
im just sick of immature people and immature shit
ugh Jodie Hang
i thought she was my best friend 3 years of just like closeness and then i have to admit there were times when we didnt talk that was my fault because i got caught up with other things and never had time for her and she got closer to merick. I know its immature of me to get mad because its just a myspace top friends but secretly it had meaning its like a number to you in the persons life. jodie and i were number 1 on each others for so long and then at one pooint she got a boyfriend named elvis and moved me down but she was like oh no no elvis moved you down i was like whatever and i was a good friend and was there for her when they broke up. And then we made a promise to be best friends forever always number one, and i put that girl in front of everybody else in my life and at some point i chose her over other people even if it wasnt the best desicion but i loved that girl with my heart. So today she tells me how her and merick are like talking or dating or some shit im like ok ok cool cool
and then she said oh merick moved you down from my top im like wow you think im that stupid you can say that about elvis but the same excuse for Merick to. OK im so aware its just a myspace top but the fact is she lied to me and broke our promise and she doesnt get the point she thinks its over the top but it elevated into breaking her promise that meant alot to me and betraying me and lying to me. I talked to my cousin lena who is really close to jodie to. Jodie is the best person out there and she has a good heart but she just lies alot and comes off as fake i feel bad cause im kinda talking shit about her but whatever i call it as i see it. It just pisses me off i put myself in her shoes because we use to go out and ok ok i flirted with her because we're good friends we have that bond so kissing her at winterball and mk's party i admit that was wrong of me because she got the wrong impression and thought i wanted to get back with her but not once did she ever confront me or tell me about how she felt so i kept acting the way i did because thats who i am. And then in the end all she says is that we need a break and thats bullshit she knows it because we were super close friends and some point we didnt talk because i was busy and its like wow wtf isnt that a break already =_= i went to your fucking winterball to spend time with you. whatever Blocked and deleted is the best way to handle the situation after you confronted it. She needs to put herself in my shoes how would she feel if all the sudden i replace her on my top.
ok im immature for tripping over a top but thats how it started and it elevated into lying and it pissed me off.
It makes me think
i started to think that everyone deserves a chance to be trusted until given a reason not to, but now im thinking No one deserves to be trusted until they give me a reason not to. Thats the way i think now, it just sucks the person you loved so much the person you trusted so much ugh kasjfaffkjfs ok having a guy screw me over no problem im still alive and same way with your best friend ill still survive dont get me wrong it just sucks we had that bond, but whatever shes taking something good for granted i was always there for her even after as a boyfriend lets see what happens with merick like every other person who chose their relationships over me she'll come back and i wont be there.
Focusing on school and trying to better myself following everyone's advice and im pretty happy with my life minus the whole jodie thing no boys to stress or worry about i finally feel like i found the balance in my life, but at times i just get random emotions im still angry at jordan i didnt get the closure but he's an ass hole for sure and he wasted my time. i wish i could talk to josh and i did but what good did that do so i give up you can be friends with everyone :\ thats my fault i pushed away someone who cared for me so much, i was afraid of just opening up to him again and then BAM, but i guess i did push him to far.
With William ugh so irratated i tried talking to him and he texts me saying oh sorry my friend just died, and then me and david were talking i mentioned what happen with william and he was like no wtf william said his friend moved, and idk william i trusted him to and right there he either lied to me and david, but the thing is he keeps having people he has in his life die so i dont know weither to belive him or not, but he is also dishonest, always wining about his love life or bitching to me about his friend ynez i see why we dont talk anymore because im just annoyed.
I really dont want anyone close to me anymore im just done i seriously have no close friends just like kalin said we have no friends just acquaintances, and who we call friends theres no point we all use and screw each other over in the end, and thats what we are, we're just tools to each other to vent to each other to talk to one another by giving us something to do.
My mom's bf well my dad now
taught my something new, in life im taking it into consideration
We as an individual have wants and we have needs we just need to figure what goes where and having people in my life is basically a want. I feel so alone now :\ its a feeling ill get use to people say they're there for me but i wish they were just a hug away
Back to school back to homework back to me
Because thats what i need
Me <3
but ...
ugh i feel like an idiot
im fucking 15 i have my whole life ahead of me
:\ i miss LC so much it tears me apart and eats me away each i happen to stumble upon his sn or dl i just have a instant flashback of a random memory positive or even negative. And its jsut weird now he met alex and now he met louis and everyone else its just ... :\
i had my closure i should be done, but i still feel lost and jumbled because maybe my naive self fell so hard and fall out so 100x harder
mm..
im just sick of immature people and immature shit
ugh Jodie Hang
i thought she was my best friend 3 years of just like closeness and then i have to admit there were times when we didnt talk that was my fault because i got caught up with other things and never had time for her and she got closer to merick. I know its immature of me to get mad because its just a myspace top friends but secretly it had meaning its like a number to you in the persons life. jodie and i were number 1 on each others for so long and then at one pooint she got a boyfriend named elvis and moved me down but she was like oh no no elvis moved you down i was like whatever and i was a good friend and was there for her when they broke up. And then we made a promise to be best friends forever always number one, and i put that girl in front of everybody else in my life and at some point i chose her over other people even if it wasnt the best desicion but i loved that girl with my heart. So today she tells me how her and merick are like talking or dating or some shit im like ok ok cool cool
and then she said oh merick moved you down from my top im like wow you think im that stupid you can say that about elvis but the same excuse for Merick to. OK im so aware its just a myspace top but the fact is she lied to me and broke our promise and she doesnt get the point she thinks its over the top but it elevated into breaking her promise that meant alot to me and betraying me and lying to me. I talked to my cousin lena who is really close to jodie to. Jodie is the best person out there and she has a good heart but she just lies alot and comes off as fake i feel bad cause im kinda talking shit about her but whatever i call it as i see it. It just pisses me off i put myself in her shoes because we use to go out and ok ok i flirted with her because we're good friends we have that bond so kissing her at winterball and mk's party i admit that was wrong of me because she got the wrong impression and thought i wanted to get back with her but not once did she ever confront me or tell me about how she felt so i kept acting the way i did because thats who i am. And then in the end all she says is that we need a break and thats bullshit she knows it because we were super close friends and some point we didnt talk because i was busy and its like wow wtf isnt that a break already =_= i went to your fucking winterball to spend time with you. whatever Blocked and deleted is the best way to handle the situation after you confronted it. She needs to put herself in my shoes how would she feel if all the sudden i replace her on my top.
ok im immature for tripping over a top but thats how it started and it elevated into lying and it pissed me off.
It makes me think
i started to think that everyone deserves a chance to be trusted until given a reason not to, but now im thinking No one deserves to be trusted until they give me a reason not to. Thats the way i think now, it just sucks the person you loved so much the person you trusted so much ugh kasjfaffkjfs ok having a guy screw me over no problem im still alive and same way with your best friend ill still survive dont get me wrong it just sucks we had that bond, but whatever shes taking something good for granted i was always there for her even after as a boyfriend lets see what happens with merick like every other person who chose their relationships over me she'll come back and i wont be there.
Focusing on school and trying to better myself following everyone's advice and im pretty happy with my life minus the whole jodie thing no boys to stress or worry about i finally feel like i found the balance in my life, but at times i just get random emotions im still angry at jordan i didnt get the closure but he's an ass hole for sure and he wasted my time. i wish i could talk to josh and i did but what good did that do so i give up you can be friends with everyone :\ thats my fault i pushed away someone who cared for me so much, i was afraid of just opening up to him again and then BAM, but i guess i did push him to far.
With William ugh so irratated i tried talking to him and he texts me saying oh sorry my friend just died, and then me and david were talking i mentioned what happen with william and he was like no wtf william said his friend moved, and idk william i trusted him to and right there he either lied to me and david, but the thing is he keeps having people he has in his life die so i dont know weither to belive him or not, but he is also dishonest, always wining about his love life or bitching to me about his friend ynez i see why we dont talk anymore because im just annoyed.
I really dont want anyone close to me anymore im just done i seriously have no close friends just like kalin said we have no friends just acquaintances, and who we call friends theres no point we all use and screw each other over in the end, and thats what we are, we're just tools to each other to vent to each other to talk to one another by giving us something to do.
My mom's bf well my dad now
taught my something new, in life im taking it into consideration
We as an individual have wants and we have needs we just need to figure what goes where and having people in my life is basically a want. I feel so alone now :\ its a feeling ill get use to people say they're there for me but i wish they were just a hug away
Back to school back to homework back to me
Because thats what i need
Me <3
but ...
ugh i feel like an idiot
im fucking 15 i have my whole life ahead of me
:\ i miss LC so much it tears me apart and eats me away each i happen to stumble upon his sn or dl i just have a instant flashback of a random memory positive or even negative. And its jsut weird now he met alex and now he met louis and everyone else its just ... :\
i had my closure i should be done, but i still feel lost and jumbled because maybe my naive self fell so hard and fall out so 100x harder
mm..
Thursday, January 1, 2009
Hell09
haha yea lets be corny and shit 08 IS OVER WHOOHOOO
FUCK YEA
09 is here im kinda glad
that day louis picked me up and we met up with cameron and i met their friend kenny and then we went to union landing to eat at iin and out well kenny ate and then we visited the walmart just for kenny haha, picked up ryan at union bart and drove to fremont and played Brawl at Cameron's and then headed off to Fruitsvale bart :) went to Ryan;s bf i Enrique o-o omg i hoped i spelled it right but cameron and kenny got off at powell to meet up with there friends we all met up at enrique's place eventually :) and then kenny's friend tina met up with us we all took some shots of tequila and started dancing idk im usually a heavy weight but i was so emotionally at that point i let the alcohol affect me letting me become a light weight, we were going to meet up with Simon Paul, and jordan later and jordan i wasnt so thrilled about i knew he had alot of drama in his life but he brings it upon himself, i found out about his past and his present and his socal boy andrew jose, oh well i dont need to be screwed over again, ahahaha i ended up hella tipsy but not drunk and my new years kiss went to paul, but so much shit is with him to Him and An Ha and An ha and kevin oh well like this whole break i was suppose to be on a break but who gives a shit i know i dont its break im ready to have fun im glad daven and i broke up like i miss him and all but SHIT I HAD SO MUCH FUN hahaha :)
:\ its sad its ending
Thank you
Louis Pandong
Cameron Koichi Joe
Ryan Maldanado
Paul Woo
Tina Ym
Kenny Lim
Enrique
For the best night of my life, people who i just met i feel so close to like you guys are my family no lie, but when you guys talked about the past i have to admit i felt left out but its ok im use to it i started off quiet meeting you guys and hopefully we stay in touch and make new memories :)
FLY HOME SAFELY CAMERON <3
gosh its so embarassing but i had a mini crush on him! but if i look at it i dont stand a chance so really he's a Older brother to me they all are, haha sucks being the youngest but i realized alot, im to young i have my whole life ahead of me i dont need drugsor alcohol and screw downelink focus on the more important things in life and not
AND DO NOT become part of the scene and i repulse myself because im so young like one of the youngest NOT THE YOUNGEST but to young and im not even in the scene yet im so far in it for my age, so i need to stop JUST STOP :) and im glad i have people like them in my life that helped me realize that becaues if i kept going i would have had a reputation and everything and we wouldnt want that wouldnt we haha.
Ryan: The Flatt one
I met other cool like Branden Nozaki :) he told me the same liike everyone else its just idk heart warming starting the new year like this, Cameron was saying if i ever needed advice just give him a call and idk :) like it made me smile like they're people on DL who are genuwinely nice. I just met these people i feel so close to them more close than i do to others and hopefully they feel the same way :)
Dude haha i feel like an idiot for crying like new years eve i was crying cause jordan wong pissed me off but i was so over whelmed haha cause they kept asking me if i was okay and i just like ajnfajsfa its made me so happy for once in my life people cared and i didnt push them away in the end :)
As for myself i just need to be true to myself and focus on the main things like school and family, well i told my aunt jenny and jocelyn my uncle mike and thai i was gay that turned out okay i guess im just afraid to tell my mom but its all good i will eventually. I really do need to work on my body language im playful and what not but people take it the wrong way so when i really dig someone im going to flirt with them the same way i flirt with everybody else and im just going to be portrayed as some whore who gets around thanks louis hahaha :)
Thank you everybody seriously whoever hurt me made me happy you made a big impact on my 08 life im still changing and growing
im a master piece in the works
:)
All Wilcox Friends!
Shelton Jorden
AaronJosh Bondoc
Daniel Nguyen
David Vasser
Karen Huynh
William Cao
Kalin Estep
Ryan Maldonado
Breanna Hasse
Louis Pandong
Ella Greely
Kenny Lim
Aryn Martin
Cameron Koici Joe
Britnny Abad
Enrique
Tina Ym
Branden Nozaki
Kevin Nguyen
Daven Lagmen
Luke Lubag
Lance Cuevas
Alex Luong
Tong
Nestor
Eddie
idk i think the most important one Lawrence Andrew Cruz :\
miss him sometimes but its in the past now
WILCOX COLORGUARD WINTERGUARD WILCOX MARCHING BAND :)
More people but i cant remember
Anyways past in the past 09 new heart throbs and definetly no heart breaks cause im a smart kid now even thou im still learning
FUCK YEA
09 is here im kinda glad
that day louis picked me up and we met up with cameron and i met their friend kenny and then we went to union landing to eat at iin and out well kenny ate and then we visited the walmart just for kenny haha, picked up ryan at union bart and drove to fremont and played Brawl at Cameron's and then headed off to Fruitsvale bart :) went to Ryan;s bf i Enrique o-o omg i hoped i spelled it right but cameron and kenny got off at powell to meet up with there friends we all met up at enrique's place eventually :) and then kenny's friend tina met up with us we all took some shots of tequila and started dancing idk im usually a heavy weight but i was so emotionally at that point i let the alcohol affect me letting me become a light weight, we were going to meet up with Simon Paul, and jordan later and jordan i wasnt so thrilled about i knew he had alot of drama in his life but he brings it upon himself, i found out about his past and his present and his socal boy andrew jose, oh well i dont need to be screwed over again, ahahaha i ended up hella tipsy but not drunk and my new years kiss went to paul, but so much shit is with him to Him and An Ha and An ha and kevin oh well like this whole break i was suppose to be on a break but who gives a shit i know i dont its break im ready to have fun im glad daven and i broke up like i miss him and all but SHIT I HAD SO MUCH FUN hahaha :)
:\ its sad its ending
Thank you
Louis Pandong
Cameron Koichi Joe
Ryan Maldanado
Paul Woo
Tina Ym
Kenny Lim
Enrique
For the best night of my life, people who i just met i feel so close to like you guys are my family no lie, but when you guys talked about the past i have to admit i felt left out but its ok im use to it i started off quiet meeting you guys and hopefully we stay in touch and make new memories :)
FLY HOME SAFELY CAMERON <3
gosh its so embarassing but i had a mini crush on him! but if i look at it i dont stand a chance so really he's a Older brother to me they all are, haha sucks being the youngest but i realized alot, im to young i have my whole life ahead of me i dont need drugsor alcohol and screw downelink focus on the more important things in life and not
AND DO NOT become part of the scene and i repulse myself because im so young like one of the youngest NOT THE YOUNGEST but to young and im not even in the scene yet im so far in it for my age, so i need to stop JUST STOP :) and im glad i have people like them in my life that helped me realize that becaues if i kept going i would have had a reputation and everything and we wouldnt want that wouldnt we haha.
Ryan: The Flatt one
I met other cool like Branden Nozaki :) he told me the same liike everyone else its just idk heart warming starting the new year like this, Cameron was saying if i ever needed advice just give him a call and idk :) like it made me smile like they're people on DL who are genuwinely nice. I just met these people i feel so close to them more close than i do to others and hopefully they feel the same way :)
Dude haha i feel like an idiot for crying like new years eve i was crying cause jordan wong pissed me off but i was so over whelmed haha cause they kept asking me if i was okay and i just like ajnfajsfa its made me so happy for once in my life people cared and i didnt push them away in the end :)
As for myself i just need to be true to myself and focus on the main things like school and family, well i told my aunt jenny and jocelyn my uncle mike and thai i was gay that turned out okay i guess im just afraid to tell my mom but its all good i will eventually. I really do need to work on my body language im playful and what not but people take it the wrong way so when i really dig someone im going to flirt with them the same way i flirt with everybody else and im just going to be portrayed as some whore who gets around thanks louis hahaha :)
Thank you everybody seriously whoever hurt me made me happy you made a big impact on my 08 life im still changing and growing
im a master piece in the works
:)
All Wilcox Friends!
Shelton Jorden
AaronJosh Bondoc
Daniel Nguyen
David Vasser
Karen Huynh
William Cao
Kalin Estep
Ryan Maldonado
Breanna Hasse
Louis Pandong
Ella Greely
Kenny Lim
Aryn Martin
Cameron Koici Joe
Britnny Abad
Enrique
Tina Ym
Branden Nozaki
Kevin Nguyen
Daven Lagmen
Luke Lubag
Lance Cuevas
Alex Luong
Tong
Nestor
Eddie
idk i think the most important one Lawrence Andrew Cruz :\
miss him sometimes but its in the past now
WILCOX COLORGUARD WINTERGUARD WILCOX MARCHING BAND :)
More people but i cant remember
Anyways past in the past 09 new heart throbs and definetly no heart breaks cause im a smart kid now even thou im still learning
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