Insomnia

anyways
this week is battle of the classes, and im just so tired haha dance and what not
im not proud of my dance, it was suppose to be sexy but girls cant move their hips so im kinda annoyed im in things like crab soccer hopefully i dont get kicked in the face again i'm in hoola hoop relay and in jump rope relay
hella excited clarice emmily sister and my mom are coming and michael
mmm idk what to type
whenever i stop blogging i hate catching up cause so much starts happening
Well let me start from recent events
the past days i would get easily frustrated and just lay in bed reading, i feel so unproductive and lonely i really miss the internet haha, today in theater class i talked to someone and they were like "oh i'm talking to someone now they like me" and i like them and suprisingly it affected me, i thought i would care less eh its my fault i let go of something good, its hard being patient it really is. Two days ago, i stayed a little later at school online and my good friend david was online, i've been hoping to talk to him so finally when i get the chance i do and i talked about what happen i just feel like a big jerk, because the day i first met M he was telling me how he forced himself to like D and it wasnt working out but when i talked to D, he said M didnt tell D that he doesnt really like him that way until later that day, the day he met me, idk if M really felt that "he forced" himself to like D or, maybe i was a big ass hole and took M away from D idk, ill never know, maybe i should be happy with what i have and not dwell, but i cant help but worry about a friend :\

anyways thats all for now